Be kind to yourself and forgive THEM.
"Forgive anyone who has caused you pain or harm. Keep in mind that forgiving is not for others. It is for you. Forgiving is not forgetting. It is remembering without anger. It frees up your power, heals your body, mind and spirit. Forgiveness opens up a pathway to a new place of peace where you can persist despite what has happened to you." Jacob Salem
I know- boy, do I know that it seems so difficult to forgive someone who a) doesn't acknowledge that they have wronged you or b) care that they hurt you. This bitter tastes comes in your mouth that just sets you on fire because its just another thing they can do that you can't or they're not nice, why should I be, or my personal favorite- if the roles were reversed, it'd be the end of the world.
Felt all those things and then some. Fairly certain they even popped up this weekend and into my Monday morning. Ugh. But I saw the above paragraph this morning in my devotions and it's stuck with me. The hurt, the judgement, the stress, all the negative- its THEM. They can do whatever they want. BUT guess what, so can you. You can chose to feed into that nasty negatives and ruin your day or you can rise above them. Feel it in your heart and in your soul that they do not get the power to hurt you, to ruin your day, to upset you. Breathe it all in and let it all go. Forgive them so you can be kind to yourself.
I know I messed up this weekend with my journey to kindness. Boy was I cranky, sassy, annoyed, tired and sore- HELLO MOVING. I let what came out of other peoples mouths hurt me. I let things that I have ZERO control, to affect me and I was snippy. Things weren't going my way so it was the end of the world. My new house is a friggin mess and it annoyed me. I chose to be that way. If I just would have forgiven them for being the way they always are, or accepting the situation as it was, perhaps the weekend wouldve been more enjoyable. I have this big house that is going to be gorgeous. I stressed over this house for so long and now its all ours. I keep thinking about how the future should "be" instead of focusing on now and how far we've come. And I'm pretty proud of that.
Be kind to yourself friend and forgive them.