She may be a little eccentric and I may not always agree with her views, but Lady Gaga seriously knows how to make an impact and has some pretty amazing lyrics.
Lately, I've been searching for other's approvals or I've been disappointed when others actions haven't met my expectations. I've lost respect and trust from people I was close to and I think I've lost respect and trust in myself. I truly feel that we all go through cycles such as this and unfortunately, they are necessary. These moments are painful and uncomfortable, but they help us to grow and change.
If I need to get out of my head, I turn up some music that makes me wanna dance and sing and Ms Gaga station was on my brain today because my "Quote of the Day" was something she said, " I've been searching for a way to heal myself, and I've found that Kindness is the best way." That's it. I cannot change others and I cannot control their actions, but I can be kind. I don't need to throw myself into their pit of hurt and it's not worth my tears. They can and will do whatever it takes to my happiness away from me, but I can always kill them with kindness.
If someone is no longer in my life, it's not because I wish ill on them, it's because I need to be selfish and take care of myself. I may have parted ways because I don't agree with something in their lives or beliefs- I truly wish them the best and want them to be happy. But to be the best me- mom, wife, photographer, coworker, WHATEVER- I cannot allow myself to be hurt and it's not fair to expect someone to behave a certain way when that's just not how that person is. So, instead of being disappointed and hurt, they live their lives, and I continue my search for happiness.
"I'm beautiful in my way Cause God makes no mistakes. I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way. Don't hide yourself in regret, just love yourself and you're set. I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way".
I'm a people pleaser and always will be. But today, I'm going to try to take my happiness back. I cannot control what other's say or think about me- because they will, and unfortunately, sometimes, it will be those who's opinion's I value the most. That's alot of power to give to another person and it's not fair to anyone that I be hurt because they didn't meet my expectations.
Join me today- June 22, 2020- to spread kindness and positivity like confetti for the next 365 days. If for one day we lose our way- pour that shit into the next day like a volcano! Let's spread so much of that glittery, shiny, goodness that others fart happiness! Because baby, I was born that way and kindness really is the best way.